My middle child moved out and I miss her more than life itself. Six hours away may as well be 20 hours away right now. Sigh*** I know they have to grow up and move on. It has been and adjustment getting used to living alone but I love it and for the first time ever, I no longer want anyone in my life to live with. The change has been good for me I think. My youngest daughter at least came home for one day at Christmas and her sheer presence brought me immense joy.
How do you tell someone that when they hug you it causes you extreme anxiety? I don't like being touched or hugged. Only my kids and my husband got that pleasure, and very few close friends. I'm so uncomfortable in my own home, I can't stand it. I want to curl up into a little ball and escape my own place. Has nothing to do with not liking a person but its someone I hardly know, they haven't been around enough physically in my life for me to develop that comfort level of needing to be hugged. Its so hard right now that I want to cry.
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