Sunday, December 25, 2022

Christmas Weekend 2022

There are a lot of things I am thankful for and my children and grandchildren are one of them.  The holidays are hard for a lot of people and I am one of them.  It may come as a surprise to some but it takes pep talks each morning to myself so I can function.  I have been told by well-meaning people to be thankful for all that I have, and I most assuredly am.  I get told that maybe medication will help, tried and failed.  The thing I suffer, as with a lot of people, is heartbreak.  When you lose someone you love it never leaves you, you live with the pain and it becomes a part of who you are.

Happiness, its a moment and I do have a lot of happy moments.  Contentment is what I feel when I am at home, it is hard to be anywhere else to feel that.  Yet, I truly find each day something to be thankful for.  Someone once told me that I am strong, I do not feel strong.  Someone told me that I have done well, it is hard for me sometimes to see that.  Yet, I keep moving forward with hope and love for all the blessings that I have.  

Yet, I can't help but feel bitter about what was ripped out from under me, my husband.  Still single after 15 years and not able to find someone to at least understand me or give me what I need so I have now come to accept the fact that only I can help myself.  So I wake up each day, count my blessings and find another reason to get out of bed. Strong?  Maybe.  I'm just used to things being difficult that it makes it seem easy to other people how my life is.  I don't complain about it either, no need.  Just being thankful each day!  This holiday was a very thankful thing for me, my kids were all together.

Tuesday, October 4, 2022

Updates

Trying to figure out what I need to update you all on since my last post, not that there are many people on here. I ended up going to Sturgis, SD to the Biker Rally and hung out with the Mickey Utley Band.  I had the absolute time of my life, it was not only amazing to see friends again but to cross this off my bucket list. I made new friends, I saw new things and I took some time off to drive to Mt. Rushmore and see that for the first, I was blown away by the beauty of South Dakota.  Blessed.

My business is kicking off pretty good, learning a lot about Photoshop and even lighting.  I am grateful.  There isn't too much to report but enjoy a couple of images I took recently. 



 

Wednesday, April 6, 2022


 I seriously have a tremendous amount of respect for musicians like Mickey Utley. He puts his heart into hissongs when he sings them. Not only does he do that, he brings his audience with him on his journey.


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Wednesday, March 16, 2022

Maybe I'm too Sensitve

Maybe I'm too sensitive?  Maybe I overreact?  Maybe I do but guess what, I have good reason. I've been hurt, taken advantaged of and lied to.  I have every right because I know when someone is not being real with me or not telling me everything.  I am so hurt right now I can't think straight and you know what, I have to swallow that hurt and let it slide.  Don't want to cause any drama!  So, I shut my mouth.  I tell you this, done being a doormat.

Monday, March 7, 2022

Just Don't Know

Just don't know. Don't know what to feel or what to do. Our world is in a crisis and many are overwhelmed.  I had my doubts all these years but the last few have shown me that I have no more doubts.  For years, I've felt something was coming but to live through what I feel is coming, is so surreal. The only thing that I can do is just pray and get my family in board.   

Pray people, pray!

Monday, February 28, 2022

Awake

It only took a few days to completely change how I think and feel.  Russia invades Ukraine and all of the sudden, Covid is irrelevant.  All of the sudden being tired and going to work even when you're not feeling good is a heck of a lot easier now.  My little problems in the universe seem to be a complete waste of my time.  Right now, all I feel is gratitude and fear.   I'm grateful for everything that I have because it is abundantely clear that it can be gone in the blink of an eye.  So fear has taken place and it's not what you may think.

For years I have always felt something in the universe and the energy over the years just has become so tense, it is almost too much at times to bear.   I feared it at first but now I welcome this energy because it became my guide.  The fear that I was talking about in the first paragraph is not being able to get the message to my loved ones that it is time to repent and find God again.  I fear that the loss of my husband the lack of my bringing up my children in the faith will somehow cause them to not be where they need to be.  All I do every day and have most of my life pray, even more so for my kids and grandkids.

So if you are blessed enough to wake up tomorrow, be grateful and go out there and spread the word!

Saturday, February 19, 2022

When you Hide Yourself

When you hide yourself, I can see

the true you that I seek

Not the one you show the world

the one you really are, let it unfurl

You can tell others your story of you

but I see the truth and it makes me blue

Because you have to hide and can't be real

maybe it's time to tell how you really feel


Sunday, February 13, 2022

Why the unfairness?

Growing up, I saw a lot of unfairness in my life around me.  I felt like I was favored over my brother.  As I grew up, I saw it in other families as well.  Someone get's remarried and they have more children, and those are favored more.  You can see it when one gets a stereo for Christmas and the other a shirt.  I never understood why that was?   How about dropping everything to attend your new families function but you can't attend your other children's function?  How is it possible you can love one child more than the other?

I have always been one that stood up for injustice and to me, this is a sort of injustice.  You can love each one differently but each and every one of mine, I would do anything for.  During Christmas, I made sure to spend the same on my children because I didn't want them to get that same feeling I had growing up.  I was one of those too that was treated like a second child growing up. 

Parent's, children see everything. 

Thursday, January 27, 2022

Today 1/27/2022

There's not much I can say about what's going on in the world but it really is getting out-of-control.  Surging prices on homes, rentals, gas, food and supplies for everything else.  Not to mention that we are saddled with the worst President in history, Joe Biden.  To top all that off, it started with a criminal being killed by the Police, which was tragic, but it triggered riots and looting and self-entitlement.  Don't get me started on the Coronavirus; we need to be done with this already.  Let people live.  I am more than sick of it all.  Sick of our cops being killed, our kids being masked, people judging others so severely.  The cry babies of the nation doing away with our history and TV shows, and every little thing because they are offended. It is complete nonsense and I am sorry that my children and grandchildren have to grow up in a world like this. I can only continue to pray each day for them and hope that something gives.  Democrat run cities are being taken over by criminals.  It is too much, God must be so very sad!