Awake

It only took a few days to completely change how I think and feel.  Russia invades Ukraine and all of the sudden, Covid is irrelevant.  All of the sudden being tired and going to work even when you're not feeling good is a heck of a lot easier now.  My little problems in the universe seem to be a complete waste of my time.  Right now, all I feel is gratitude and fear.   I'm grateful for everything that I have because it is abundantely clear that it can be gone in the blink of an eye.  So fear has taken place and it's not what you may think.

For years I have always felt something in the universe and the energy over the years just has become so tense, it is almost too much at times to bear.   I feared it at first but now I welcome this energy because it became my guide.  The fear that I was talking about in the first paragraph is not being able to get the message to my loved ones that it is time to repent and find God again.  I fear that the loss of my husband the lack of my bringing up my children in the faith will somehow cause them to not be where they need to be.  All I do every day and have most of my life pray, even more so for my kids and grandkids.

So if you are blessed enough to wake up tomorrow, be grateful and go out there and spread the word!

When you Hide Yourself

When you hide yourself, I can see

the true you that I seek

Not the one you show the world

the one you really are, let it unfurl

You can tell others your story of you

but I see the truth and it makes me blue

Because you have to hide and can't be real

maybe it's time to tell how you really feel

Why the unfairness?

Growing up, I saw a lot of unfairness in my life around me.  I felt like I was favored over my brother.  As I grew up, I saw it in other families as well.  Someone get's remarried and they have more children, and those are favored more.  You can see it when one gets a stereo for Christmas and the other a shirt.  I never understood why that was?   How about dropping everything to attend your new families function but you can't attend your other children's function?  How is it possible you can love one child more than the other?

I have always been one that stood up for injustice and to me, this is a sort of injustice.  You can love each one differently but each and every one of mine, I would do anything for.  During Christmas, I made sure to spend the same on my children because I didn't want them to get that same feeling I had growing up.  I was one of those too that was treated like a second child growing up. 

Parent's, children see everything.